Big Boppers

What is it that makes a person eat 3 Blue Bunny Big Boppers in 1 day?

I certainly dont have the answer, considering that it was me, and I still don't have a clue.

I have been surrounded by people with addictions my whole life. Drugs, alcohol, food, cigarettes, cars... (dont ask). I always felt grateful that I was one of those who didn't have any of those addictions that they just couldn't kick. But the ugly of an addiction is that the person who has it doesn't realize they have it. I have always believed that a person with an addiction needs to hit some sort of rock bottom before they can begin their journey back to the light.

I realize now that I have an addiction. I'm addicted to food. And not just any food, but fast food. Processed food. Quick food. Anything that is bad for you that I can get my hands on right now.

Unfortunately, I had to gain more than 100lbs before I was able to get a hint of what was going on with me. I've been on this 'diet' of mine for over a decade now. I was the tall, skinny, lanky girl up until about 5 years ago, and I thought I was fat.

This past weekend, as I cleaned the spare bedroom for the guests that would be joining us for the holiday, I found a clothes basket. And in this overloaded basket were stacks and stacks of folded clothing. Clothing that I wore when I first me my fiance, Red. Clothing that I wore when I was a size single digit. When I first met Red, I had 2 jobs. One was as a waitress, the other was at a hunt dog training facility. I loved that job. I spent all day every day outside with the dogs. And my standard work attire consisted of these little grey shorts and a size small tshirt. I held up the shorts that I used to wear when I thought I was a cow. These shorts now? I would be surprised if my arms would fit through them.

What is my problem? What was my problem back then? I was 165-170lbs, muscular, toned, healthy, and at 6ft tall! Hell, I wore size small tshirts and they fit me perfectly. Now I'm lucky to feel comfortable in an extra large.

3 Big Boppers. My rock bottom.

Ready, Set, Go....